and yes, the worst kept secret BK display at almost all their franchises is about the grill thing. haha. hud is so addicted to BK pls.

this post is random maybe the fact that allie is getting married. hehe. i think that relationship with a stranger is the most difficult thing to handle. the stranger that i am referring to is BF/ GF.

i used to be in a LDR and trust me, if i will be given a choice to choose wether to be in a LDR or not. I would definitely say NO. i used to believe that everything will turn out well and everything will be A-okay but it is the most difficult period in my 5years relationship. and yes, ive been with the same guy for 5 years. i deserve more than a pat on the back. usually LDR is not an option. and i am not saying that LDR is impossible, but it is just not for me.

ive been in a few of relationship with different people and there are different reasons too. ive been with a boy just because i wanted a bf to talk to because my friends have one of time- so sekolah rendah, i know but dont blame me that was in standard 6. ive been with a boy because i have a person to gayut with – because i used to enjoy gayuting. silly me. i know. ive been with a boy just because of revenge and broke up 2 weeks later because he was too dark. LOL. i believe that everyone has their own reasons. but i am not that lucky like everyone else, i just dont get to be with someone easily. in other words, im not that pretty. so yeah, ive been called names i am not comfortable with. whats wrong with being sepet, was i given any option to choose my eyes, my nose or whatever. i am a human being not some sims character where i get to choose how the character would look like.and get this, there this one boy named Najib in my school – ok interframe sket nama die kat sini used to call me fat. I still remember that one fine evening and he practically made an announcement from the aspura. Thanks najib for telling it to me. I guess u made me feel very conscious about how i look like till now. and yes, im still fat.

i am no doctor love but i believe that a good relationship starts with being honest. u dont have to trick people to fall in love with you. there is someone out there is meant to be with you and u just have to be yourself to be able to find one. i used to have a friend that dress up and use thing that her bf likes. we are not zaman kuno ladies pls. we are now train to be independent and we have our own freedom. u dont have to wear marc jacobs daisy if u prefer armani code in order to impress ur other half. u dont have to wear tube top if u are not comfortable and u dont have to sacrifice ur hijabs just because ur other half likes woman with free hair. there are tonnes of things a girl would do for her other half but when things does not work out at the end, we- ladies will end up hopeless and sad in the end. life is not a fairy tale, there is not always happily ever after thing.

in a relationship there is always give and take. although sometimes one part of the relationship is soo sellfish or soo ego to give way, there is always this another part that will do the opposite way. and relationship is not based on ‘kesian’. it is better for you to just let go ur BF/GF when there is no love because it is better to end it up rather than to break the person’s heart in thousand of pieces at the end when u just cant stand it and ull tell him/her for all this time u was too ‘kesian’ to let him/her go.  time is always the treatment for a broken heart. how long does it take, it depends. the stronger u are = the shorter time it will take and vice versa. for people who get to find her/his first love. the first cut is always the deepest and the hardest. but there are other people who end up being with their first love. awww

the boy/girl/man/woman u are with will technically change you in some way. good/bad it depends on the individual we are with. example : hud used to be very passive and follows everything by the rule and i think that he is sooo ‘lurus bendul’  because he was clueless when i told him that i ‘makan hati berulam jantung’.he thought that i went to the cafe and ate hati and jantung. haha. but now he is different, no more mr i dont cakap banyak but mr i ckp byk ckp tlg berhenti sbb nina dh buat muka. heee.  im glad to be with hud and not some rempit or a wanabe because i turn out to be who i am now. the same me with some alteration on a few bad parts. i guess.

i am happy that allie is getting married and my friends are with someone that they love. dont ask when will i be someone MRS because i dont know.

just skip this post if u want. it is so random and might contain craps that make u feel like slapping me right and left and stuff gardenia bread inside my mouth or in this case to tie my hand somewhere to stop me from writting more. teeheehee.

p/s : cant wait for saturday. see u soon highschool sweethearts. I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH :*